hurt and love again

life is not easy to live with... it is full of mystery. the main factor of life is 'love' to love and to be loved. but why theres a word 'hurt,pain,suffering''these are the few words that can be ask if you're ''inlove'' but why? this is the only question of a person that truly love. why i get hurt?why i feel pain? why i suffer?im just inlove,then why? why i cant get back what i give?i love and i need to be loved back? why not love and love back? oh,well.. these questions are common to all of us . personally i also ask that. because in my whole life i gave love but never had it back..anyway thats my life when i was stupid and fool. but i feel no regrets in my past.coz i learned from it. made me stronger and better person.yes,i can say im a better person now. il share some of my story why i can say that.

i was a college student 8 years ago.. i loved and loved.. thats all i know..i cant say im good student but im trying to be good... some dont like me... some does... im always inlove...yes i was... i can say im fool coz even the guy hurt me so bad,still im inlove with him.. friends say stop..but i cant.. i love and love and love thats all i know.. till i met guy who is my ''first time'' hope everybody know what first time means.. im so in love with him.. weve been lover for years.. on and off relationship.. till i got pregnant.. im so excited about it thought he feel the same way too..but i was wrong... when he knows im pregnant,he wants the baby abort.. i refused and leave him without saying anything. i was hurt and totally divastated..its like the end of mylife..the worst part of mylife..though i wont let the baby ost but still i feel so down and its like im living dead.. for 9 months my life so terrible.. tears fall everynight.. my life like a mess... totally a mess... the worst and downfull chapter of mylife.. but when i deliver my very first baby,gezz... i cant explain the feeling... the feeling that only mother knows... i became a mother and the feeling so good,wonderful,amazing and not everybody can have the feeling of being a mother.. its like a magic..even the person who hurt me most i can forgive and forget.. and probabaly i can say to the certain person ''thank you'' thank you for giving the wonderful gifts that i never had before... thank you and thank you with all my heart.. maybe some wonder why i can say it,but mothers will understand.. i love my son from the very first time i set my eyes on him.. i can say,he's mylfe,hes my everything and hes my saviour.im blessed for having him.. i know and i want everybody know that i cant live life without my son...noone else..
from that chapter of mylife i can say now that im ready to fall again.. no heartaches,no regrets and no doubts... and the best thing is im moving on and im ready to fall in love again...

crazy damn world

Living in this world is not easy and not worth it if you don't know how to deal with it.Sometimes it’s just so hard to understand how things could change so fast, that in just a blink of an eye some things are different already.no permanent in this world except changes.anything could change in any moment.life is very unpredictable.. you have to be aware that even the person you have valued and love most could possibly turn back on you.its hard to trust ,love and get hurt.. but even the ugliest thing can possibly happen just for us to appreciate beauty, for us to know what is right or wrong,for us to realize how to value everything we have..Everything happens for a reason and every reason has its own purpose. live life.dont get wasted… life is a gift,live with it,have fun with it,play with it.. laugh loud, forgive and forget and love like you’ve never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees,no time outs, no second chances.. live life to the fullest..the best thing in life is to love and be loved.. express your feeling ,talk to your love one,dont miss a day not to say "iloveyou" maybe the day you missed is the day you could ever regret..speak out, dance in the rain,respect for you gain respect from others..appreciate things.. hold someone’s hand, comfort a friend,laugh and cry with friends,fall asleep,get rest when you tired, watch the sunrise and the sunset, stay up late, be a flirt,drink, eat, smile and be a friend to everybody,have fun,Don’t be afraid to take and give chances.if you're hurt just cry,dont pretend..just be true to yourrself.. do whatever you think is right as long as you're not hurting other people and stepping on them.. life is like a game..just play fair and you will win...